hmms..hahz..msn down..argh..how long must it take?!

anyways..kiinda sorted out my feelings..and ii won't realiie care about so much of love anymore now.. cuz.. i realiize tt ii realiie nv love anyone after -wl- although i stead wif -siiong- but..it wasn't realie e love i had for hiim..it's juz a normal lykin juz lyk i lyk my gorS and diiS too lors. mabbie all dun realiie noe how ii felt. u thiink i wan to be lyk thiis? all hab to blame iit at my juggled up feeliings... *siigh*

realiie irritated by wad -jy- said..

: aiiya..eve alwayz lyk tt sae de..after tt lyk other ppl agaiin

m i realie lyk thiis in e eye of my frenz?

Father,
i'm tiired at tt moment. guess i disappoiint you. i'm realiie sry. frm now on i will remember iin my heart how u sacrifiice yourself for mii. y juz they couldn't trust u. and hab to crucify u iin tt way. realiie hurts my heart. frm now on. i will walk iin e path of liight you shiine frm heaven. i hav alwayz remembered wad u said [love your enemies more than urself] i did wad u said. i wasn't angry at them. juz wan to noe wad realiie lead to thiis state.

well, back to -siiong- de thiingy. break le lors. [sae be4 on previous post le bahz. juz wanna sae it again.] felt beiin freed bahz. onlii concentrate on wad ii realiie wan now. i will do as much as i can to make my dreams come true.

dreamz would onlii realiie come true till you strive for iit.

.[unless] you liive iin [dreamzland].